In the cleft of the Rock.....

Home today. I have had an abscess tooth a few weeks back which after some dental work and penicillin came back. Now back on antibiotics again I decided that maybe I did not have to be super tuff and I could take the pain medication they prescribed. I hate taking pills and I dislike even more pain medication. It brings back memories of surgeries long past and being incapacitated. Mentally numb in a way as the world sped around me. I never, thanks be to God, developed an addiction, but it scared me that I might back then and so to this day I would rather tuff things through than just take something temporally for relief. Maybe it was some kind of pride on my part that I could secretly be in great pain and offer it all up while going on with my daily activities. This really got my attention though. A combination of pain from this and some things I am working through along with a very busy schedule and I found myself stopped for a time. Maybe it is time to rest, pray and sort things out a bit.





Several big changes are coming up in my life in the not too distant future. Changes for the good-- at least I think so-- none the less there is a time of big transition coming up. As I take a minute to think on this I realize that the time that this dental problem has given me might be at the best time. Time to slow down a bit and prepare at least in my heart and mind for the changes.





On a different note I am hoping at some point to get some help so that I can develop the prose that I write. I am hesitant about this as I want to maintain control however maybe it would be good to learn some skills and pointers that apply to anyone....then I can apply them to my writings.





I am very very tired right now and I am planning to return to work tomorrow. Sleep for me is problematic and lately it has been more difficult. I have tried the man made and human suggested things to combat sleep problems. I need to pray for God's help. On the subject of prayer I was telling a friend this evening that I want to begin praying specifically for certain virtues and gifts/fruit of the Holy Spirit. I think this is a good thing to ask for and something that will help me to bear out my faith in Christ better.

I was given the Holy Card, in the image above, years ago by someone in a prayer group. I know someone now who works in stained glass and I am going to commission her to make this into stained glass. I love this image. The words from the Song of Songs is below the image. The actual Holy Card I was told belonged to St. Therese of the Child Jesus and the Holy Face. I wish I could read it well enough to have the words in English and French.

Off to bed. Thank you God for all your gifts this day.